The curse of a black child

S. O. A. P Method

July 7th, 2023

Good morning. Are you good because I am very much good and happy today. I actually feel much better than the last time, when I felt shitty about myself and I didn’t know how to feel. I had mixed emotions but scared at the same time. Well how do you feel today?? Did you journal your thoughts because I do when I feel lonely and scared, even when I am happy I do journal my feelings hey and which helps me a lot but sometimes I tell someone (my best friend) about my emotions at times because I am too overwhelmed when i get write them in my journal, sometimes I just pray to God and tell Him my emotions and cry it all out, then I read my Bible and journal it out at times using the S. O. A.P Method.

WHAT IS THE S. O. A. P METHOD?

Well today I would like to tell you about a method called S.O.A.P. Some people do know it, some don’t. Well the S. O. A. P. method is a method that you use when doing a Bible study individually or in a group. You don’t have to be skilled or have studied Theology to master the method, its open for everyone. It can be used in church or individually or at home when praying or doing a Bible study as a family or friends.

HOW DO YOU APPLY THE S. O. A. P METHOD?

This is how you are going to apply the S. O. A. P. method in following:

S – Scripture

Lets says you are reading a certain chapter in the Bible and you liked a certain scripture in the chapter that you have read then under scripture you are going to write that scripture. For example I love John 14 verse 14 and I am going to physically write it down in my notebook (you can you use your laptop or your iPad or tablet if you want to). You will be also amazed at what God will reveal to you when you slow down to write or meditate on what you are reading. So lets go to Observation.

O – Observation

What do you see in the verses you’re reading? Who is the audience? Is there repetition of words? What words stand out to you? What is the main lesson of the theme or on the scripture that you chose?

A – Application

When God’s word becomes personal. What is God saying to you today? How can you apply what you just read into your life? Are there any changes that you need to make?

P – Prayers

Pray God’s word back to Him. If He has revealed something to you during this time in His word, pray about. Confess if He has revealed some sin/sins that is in your life. Take time to thank Him for His goodness in your life.

LAST BUT NOT LEAST

Write everything I mentioned in your notebook/laptop/iPad/tablet wherever you want to write your S. O. A. P. Method and you mostly feel comfortable writing in. Don’t forget to always go back and re-read what you have written so that you don’t backslide or forget what you have studied in your Bible.

Just remember that God loves you and He will always do. He doesn’t care what you did in the past, He forgives all sins, only if you repent and ask for forgiveness that comes genuinely from your heart.
WHO AM I?

July 6th, 2023

I don’t know who am I or how should feel. I have mixed emotions.

Sometimes I am angry at the things that I can’t change, sometimes I feel overwhelmed and scared not knowing what to do. It’s like my world is coming to an end. Sometimes I feel like myself and when I pray to God I feel better but a times I feels like God doesn’t hear me because of the sins that I carry, which they can be too much to bare. Sometimes I don’t even know myself and I think I am better off this world than to live in this misery and pain that is inside of me.

Sometimes I would be like you are doing great don’t beat yourself up to it because you are just going through a phase, it happens darling. There are times I would tell myself that girl just pray to God and give everything to Him because He is the creator of this world and He knows our lives and He knows what He is doing because He created me and He created me in His own image.

But there are times where I just feel lonely like no one cares or am I spending too much time on social media and expecting everyone to respond to me in time? But that’s too selfish of me hey, like everybody else is doing their own thing and they are busy and I am here sitting and looking at the four corners of my bedroom doing nothing, just sitting there and expecting something to happen or to pop up magically. Like girl do something but at the same time I don’t know what to do because I feel like I am behind with life or sometimes I do have ideas but I just don’t know where to start or I just don’t have the resources to start.

Where will I go? Where will I start? What do I do? How do I start doing a meaningful thing in my life? Or am I just stuck like this forever?

WHO AM I?

S. O. A. P Method

WHO AM I?